LongShotStartUpGirl: You Are Brave: Body Spiders

In many ways, dying from cancer is like being an entrepreneur. Yeah, that sounds like a crazy kind of combo you order at some remote dump food joint you took a chance on because you believe in the small guy.

I'm living the life of these two conditions right now. I'm an entrepreneur chasing after crazy ideas to build things to make peoples lives better. I am also witnessing the slow death of my brother in law, Rob. I've hardly had a chance to get to know Rob, as he joined the family less than three years ago. Of course I would know him extremely well at this point in time, except one tiny little problem, the giant spider inside his body. It's labelled cancer, but I call it a body spider, as that is how it displays itself. It spreads like a spider with some sort of core and legs that reach into his lungs, taking life from him, and giving him extreme pain.

Rob and Sara's little girl

Tonight was a very special Christmas Eve. I had thought none of us should go to the family Christmas, as, how can we laugh, and open presents, as Rob lys upstairs awaiting his death? Surely he would hear us. Surely it would hurt his heart to hear the life party he will soon be gone from. HIs mind might think: How I wish I could live to grow old with my family, and of course that is on his heart, entirely.

I didn't know my brother Rob was an Entrepreneur until recently. He worked for the Government when I met him, and he left that job when he got sick. I noticed one day on his Facebook page that he said he was an entrepreneur. When I read these words it melted my heart. I knew there would never be enough time left for him and I, to create. I knew the spider was consuming him. I know that if I can carry his entrepreneur gift to you, I would. But I do not know what it is. Or do I?

Yeah, if you want to build, well build something people want, maybe you cannot save lives, but maybe you can build life.

To Rob Proctor: My dear brother, my spiritual arms surround you. I hug you in my thoughts and heart. I'm so sad we did not get the opportunity to build. i'm positive you are an ass kicker, and you would never let schmucks fool you. You are going to Heaven before us because, well, all the good ones go first. Us fuck ups have to wait.