Happy New Year! Meet Social Strength

Welcome to 2014. I have to say I am happy it has arrived. I had a pretty rough 2013 and I just want to put a ton of things behind me. I'm also happy to present to you my new Startup.

http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/social-strength

As I launched my first startup DigiThin last spring I do not have the funds I need to build this so I am running a campaign on Indiegogo. I'm asking you to please pass around, retweet and post this link http://igg.me/at/SocialStrength the next 40 days.

Now why should you help me? Because I know you care about people and I know if you could you would like to help humanity in some way. What does it hurt or cost you to post, retweet and email? A moment called a click. I need you. I'm asking kindly with all my love, will you please help me and my team? 

Graciously join me and my team in building a unique social network, one that will have an undeniable impact. Even you can change a life. 

Check it out. http://igg.me/at/SocialStrength

Resolutions Are Like Friends You Cannot Depend On

When you have a good friend you can count on that person. If they say they are going to do something then they do it, or they give you acceptable reason as why they cannot. Resolutions are like friends you can not trust. Resolutions are flaky friends that usually let you down.

I was trying to figure out why I fell into superstitious beliefs about 2013 being nothing but a bad year for me. If I really dig around in it, it had just as many great moments as it did bad. It's just that the bad moments always seem to outshine the good ones.

I thought about the start of it on New Years Eve a year ago my resolution was to get that hard sought after six pack. I did not make that resolution. I tried. I worked my butt off in the gym. Here is the reason that I believe I didn't get my six pack. FOOD. Yes abs are made in the kitchen and I proved that. I did not want to change what and how much I ate. I didn't want to follow my own weight loss program. DigiThin. Of course DigiThin works, but I had the excuse that I don't want to listen to my own voice. Rubbish! It doesn't bother me anymore to hear my own voice. I've had to edit it a million times over. All I did was make up an excuse to eat excessively.

The hard thing about weight loss, or the real problem as to why so many of us fail at it, is because of the crap in our minds. Yes, that liar in the head, took control of me and sabotaged me the whole entire year. If I continue to listen to her I will stay on the path of self destruction. Of course her trick is her lies. She tells me that delicious bag of salted dark chocolate is good for me. I believe it and dive in and eat as much as I want. Then that just spirals into another food binge. I have to stand up to her. When I do that, it always works.

In 2013 I launched my very first startup, and that was an amazing achievement for me. It was a ton of work and I have the best team ever ChopdawgStudios. In fact launching that was well something I never thought I could do. So how can I say the year was so bad? Most people will only talk about there ideas, few will make them come to life.

Yes I had a serious foot injury that finally took me out of commission. I could barley walk for more then and hour by the time I hit the surgery floor in July. Then I spent months rehabbing it. As horrible miserable as that was, I am happy now that my foot is almost healed.

I think what really bothers me is that I failed at the food thing. So I beat the hell out of myself because I couldn't live up to being a clean eater. You know what, very few of us can do that. People like me who have used food since childhood to cope with life, well, the battle is ever so hard for us. Listening to that liar in our head is the biggest struggle. That's why I invented DigiThin. I needed more power to fight against her. And it works. When I listen to all the weight loss coaching tracks I created, for some reason I have power. I can stand up to her and all her justifications and excuses as to why it's okay for me to eat a bunch of crap do not work. I am set free from the addiction to food.

This year I'm not making a resolution, I'm making goals. Goals for some reason are more attainable then resolutions. Yet they are the same thing in a way. Resolutions seem to fall apart and dissolve. Where as goals, well those seem to stand up. I think the word goal is stronger then the word resolution. You get a goal in football and hockey but can you get a resolution in those sports? See that's the problem with the word resolution. A goal is reachable and attainable, but a resolution has no prize at the end of it. It just seems to fizzle.

Cheers and to all a Happy New Year!

~ Jana

Wanting To Be Mean During The Holidays

Holidays - yes they annoy me. They disrupt my routine and force me to show up dressed up to places I'd rather not go. Talk to people who sometimes really upset me, and eat a bunch of crap that I really didn't want to, but it was a great way to pacify my mouth instead of saying what I really wanted to say. Screw you! Oh, I'm sorry, that was my Dexter mind talking. 

I've recently found myself engulfed in the show Dexter, about the blood analysist, whom is also a serial killer. In the show his "mind voice" often says what he really thinks, but that is only to himself. I think the reason the show is so popular is that many of us find ourselves to be a lot like Dexter. But were not serial killers and we would never do such a thing. Yet why, do I find myself relating to this loner? 

Entrepreneurs are loners. Sometimes we get really depressed and suicidal. Yeah we think about the kill but it's always our self we want to hack, not someone else. 

I like Dexter because he supposedly has no feelings about anything. But he does have a feeling about killing, he likes it, it sort of makes him feel super satisfied and gives him energy to live. All though every other feeling in life he has to fake, like his love for his future wife. 

Wouldn't it be nice to have no feelings, I think to myself. That would be a gift, then I wouldn't be upset when I have to face so many rejections about my startups.

It would also be handy during the holidays. For some reason I've been extra sensitive during the holidays this year, and I do not know why. It's like if someone ignores me or doesn't trust me, I see it and I'm pissed off. You little dirty M***** F***** why did you disrespect me? I'm like some mafia dude ready to carry out a hit, just because someone made a mistake and treated me like I can't be trusted. I just want to be like Dexter and have no feelings. That would come in handy for me.

There was this Doctor who I worked with and everyone hated him because he was such a dick. Oh yeah he was like the Indian Doctor that I talked about before. Yet he would look, and say mean things. He was the meanest Doctor around. And I wanted to be like him. 

Yes, this is what I wanted to be like. I wanted to be mean, why? Because I was to soft and people walked on me or bullied me. I wanted to learn how to be a bitch I guess. But that never worked out for me. I just could never be unkind or hurtful to others. It's just wrong to me. Yet some people in the world have no problem doing it. 

Even Dexter, a man with no feelings has the decency not to kill someone who does not deserve it. He has feelings. He cares about his code.

I want to be like Dexter because I do not want to be hurt. I want to look at someone who says some hurtful thing to me and have my mind think "Yeah, go ahead asshole, the parking lot is a dark place" 

Happy Holidays from an Entrepreneur.

~ love you!

Social Strength - A StartUp Taking Shape

I have been working constantly on my new startup. It doesn't really have a name, but I call it Social Strength, so maybe that will stick, and that is what it will be called. When I first created it I called it Razzy. That was my beloved pet who passed away a year ago.

He sure was a great dog. I loved him more then I love any humans. Sorry people, he just had a way of getting into my heart and well most humans just break my heart down. He only broke my heart because he died before I was ready to let him go. Other then that he was the perfect love. : - )

Yeah, well I do love humans even if I try not to admit it. In fact I usually love them more and care about them more then they know. For some reason this caused me trouble in life because my kindness attracted bullies to me. I would be going along in what I thought was a great friendship and then the human turned into a bully and cut me into little pieces of trash. 

Just like my first startup, this one has been plenty stressful. It's had all kinds of highs, and lows, and today even I felt like, just forget it! Stop being a entrepreneur, who the F*** cares? I was so upset today that I wanted to throw the towel in. I was done with every startup ever! I wanted to be a normal person and do normal things. 

Yet I know that will never happen. I'll never be normal. You know I talk about this being my second startup, but even my first startup was not my first one. My first startup happened years ago, but it never left my head and it never turned into anything. I've had so many startup's in my head over the years. Some of them get onto paper, and others lived in my filing cabinet. Some turned into actual products that decorated my desk. Some made it to the sales floor. I think I call DigiThin my first startup because it's the one I'm taking all the way. I have not thrown the towel in on it. I have not given up on it. And giving up on your startup is a problem with entrepreneurs. If you give up before it has time to ripen, then you will never know what it could have been. It's a hard place to be, walking along what you don't know. Is it going to be a failure or a success? How long will it take to ripen? 

Yea, so now I'm building another startup Social Strength. You know what I don't think this post makes any sense, I think it's the insanity that comes along with being an entrepreneur. I'm just talking in circles! Ahhhh I haven't told you anything about Social Strength. Well I'm going to launch it shortly after midnight on New Years Eve (Denver time) Well at least launch the idea, the finished product will take time. And you can help. You can be a part of Social Strength and I do hope you will. It's going to be incredible. 

Get Strength or Give Strength ~ 

Was Columbine The Start Of This Evil?

School shootings have been a plague in America, since Columbine. I don't know if Columbine was the first school ever to have this problem or was it just one of the worst massacre's of beautiful human lives that made the impact on us?

I live in Denver, and I did walk the graveyard of all those beautiful young teenagers and one teacher that died in April 1999 at Columbine. Not only that, but I went out there in the days after and placed flowers in the piles of thousands of flowers, Catholic candles, handmade gifts of sorrow placed to honor those beautiful young adults. I also took my precious young son who was 4 years old with me. What did he think all those flowers at a park meant?

He doesn't remember me taking him out there, but he KNOWS what Columbine means and what it was. He learned that from school. I didn't know they teach a class about it. Maybe they don't, maybe it's just one of those things that get's passed around from generation to generation, like the game Simon Says or ring around the rosy.

Since Columbine how many darn times have we gone through this? Not to mention one of the most heart breaking, those little tiny most precious among us - Newtown.

Everyone including me can not think of of what to do to stop it. And this recent one here in my town, at Arapahoe High School and the beautiful Claire Davis being taken away from her parents and her friends for no other reason then stupidity. There is no reason to kill another person unless you are defending yourself or another. That's it! No other reason!

So if you go shooting people because you want to make some statement as to how great and cool you are, well, you are only a fool, a worthless human being, you're nothing. All you did is create hate towards yourself and your family, and of course you will be dead because you're too much of a coward to kill and face the consequences of it. So you leave your family to take the beating of hate they will get because of you.

Going into any building and shooting people at random for no reason other then you think it's such a great idea, is stupid.

Take the Aurora theater shooting. I do not even know the shooters name, but he has some story that he is insane and of course he does look like he may have some kind of mental illness, when I see him on t.v. Yet this bothers me, because how does mental illness plot, gather, plan, and carry out a super killing of innocent people? How can the mental illness carry out the execution of human lives? Why doesn't the mental illness just cause the person to commit suicide? Did Columbine create a new outlet for people with mental illness? “Oh instead of killing myself because I hate life and I hate people and I am miserable, I think I will go kill a bunch of innocent people then kill myself.” Yeah that makes sense. It's stupid!

It's frustrating. I know that I worried day after day for years about my son being at school. Would he come home to me? Would his school be the choice of some stupid idiot? I thought about home schooling him, but I could never protect him from all of life. College's get attacked too. It seems that no where is really safe. There is always going to be some stupid person who thinks they are smart, but really they are not; they will always be there ready to ruin some innocent beautiful life. I guess we have to call it EVIL. That's what it is. PURE EVIL. And of course with a dollop of stupidity on top!

We all want an answer as to how were going to stop this stupidity. I think the answer is EDUCATION, and by that I mean. Lets start talking to them in kindergarten about not pointing guns at others and killing them just because we think it's cool and the fact we have access to guns, and that we feel sorry for ourselves. It's stupid. What person wants to be labeled as stupid? None of them.

Okay, I have solved nothing with this rant. This problem really bothers me. I want to solve it. I know you want to solve it. There has to be an answer. We all know there is, but why can't we find it?

The Entrepreneurs Struggle With Choosing Risk And Facing Another Failure

As I have said in my last post, I am building a social strength social network. It's another one of those ideas that pop into my mind and I can't get away from it, because well, it nags me to death until I do something about it.

Which usually means I have to make an attempt to create it. Which then always leads to rejections and of course complete failure is the destination I do not want to go to as that always leads to a day of feeling sorry for my crazy ass.

Well I did a bunch of research and just about thousands and thousands of social networks are being created everyday and almost all of them are failures. So what makes me think mine is going to fair any better then then those? Nothing.

I never even thought about all the millions of social networks being created every day that fail. I was just thinking about the idea in my head. The idea that could be a ton of fun and help humanity along the way. Seems like a good fantasy to run wild in the brain.

Then it comes down to release the idea out of my head. That's when the fear came into me and said, “WAIT, Do not do it. You'll be on the list of failures and the laughing stock of town for sure” “ Even worse, those people who whisper about you will be whispering all the more”

Ahh but you see, I must take the risk, otherwise I will never know for sure if it's another failure. If I let fear, humiliation, and demoralization run the show then I will not be able to learn. I will never get to the one idea that humanity really wants and needs. Of course that idea is in me, it's what drives me everyday. Finding Gifts for Humanity. That's what I do. 

Working On Social Strength For You

I have not posted for a bit now. I'm working my fingers, mind and pc, almost around the clock. I feel like some game developer in some closed off dark room that reeks of stale nothingness.

Yaaa, at times I've felt like I was completely insane, I've left every responsibility I have to sit by themselves and wait for the day I am finished with this project, to tend to them. Who cares about dust, clutter and making dinner. This is the moment when you have to ACT upon your brains reveling of what you should create.

I am creating a gift for you - Humanity - The thing is I have to peal it out of my mind, form it into computer language, and edit the crap out of the jungle of thoughts, over and over.

It's a good thing I can go on hardly any sleep for days and not care about anything or anyone until it's done! 

I think your going to LOVE it when it hits the streets, or what I really mean is, the social streets of where I meet you, and that would be in the world your reading me in right now and a few other places. 

Oh, and least I not forget how many times I have said the F word in the last week. I can not believe all the weird pc problems that pop up when your working on a killer project. Did you know that if it's 7 below zero and you decide to plug in a tiny space heater, because the house heat is not enough, well it can run havoc on your project. Yep, everything was fine until I wanted a little heat. Then all of a sudden all my code was turning into distorted weirdness. 

I thought I'd been hacked. How could countless hours of work be destroyed in a matter of seconds! Ahhhhhhhhh I unplugged the heater and everything was fine. LOL

Okay I'm going back to the project now. If you wonder what has happened to me. I'm working, that's all.

Love ya! Keep coding and creating gifts for Humanity........

Uppity Funders and The Doctor From India Who Used The Caste System On Me

I'm looking into funding, as all startups usually need funds if they want to grow fast. So I've been around a few sites and I came across this one site, and I just thought they were perfect. Everything they said sounded like an exact match for me and my two startups.

Well, they have a problem.

Of course they dressed it up in disguise, but I saw it right away. All I could think was, are these super intelligent people falling victim to the human condition of ignorance? I had a tiny bit of hope they were not, so I hit enter to find out. Yep, the results were. “You did not get excepted into our program, if we open it up in the future we will contact you” LMAO, super smart people being ignorant? Yes, they can fall victim to it, and they did.

You see they only asked me 4 questions.

• Did I go to college?
• Am I planning on going to college?
• Will I be enrolled in college soon?
• None of these apply.

How could you know who I am or what my startups are with those 4 questions? Now your site did not say, we only want college educated people. No it did not say we only want young people in college. Or we only want people planning to go to college. No, you knew that would be inappropriate so you hid your ignorance, just like the doctor from India.

Let me tell you about this doctor. I worked in a hospital, and my job at the time was a nurse assistant. Which is a wonderful job that I absolutely loved. I love taking care of people. No matter who they are. So it was in my first few months at this hospital, and I noticed this cute really short woman from India. She most likely immigrated to our great country, because she still had a very strong Indian accent.

I would see her talking to her patients and she was absolutely lovely, and wonderful and charming and I could tell her patients really loved her. So one day I came around the corner and entered the doctor dictation area. I was two feet in front of her face and I smiled and said hello, how are you?

This is what happened: She gave me the look of “how dare you talk to me” The look of “You are below me” The look of “You are scum of the earth and the scum of the earth have no rights to talk to me” She refused to say one word to me. Yep, she made sure that in the 4 seconds that she looked at me that I understood, I should never speak to her, because I am a person way below her, and basically I do not exist. I was astounded. How could this kind person I've seen be so pleasantly polite to her patients, treat me as if I do not qualify to talk to her? How could she treat me like I have no rights to be alive in the country I was born in?

A few weeks later, I was on the elevator, and some visitors to the hospital were on it with me. The door opened up and low and behold there stood the cute little Indian doctor, she had to get on the elevator with us, and you know what I did? I put on a great big smile and said Hello. Well, she was in a dilemma, she hated me because I was way below her, and I was not to talk to her, but if she did what she did to me before in the public view she knew she would be judged. So she had to succumb, and grumble a hello to me.

Oh Yeah! It was so sweet. Her ignorance exposed. You see, what is she going to do, the day her car rolls and I'm the one who pulls her out of the wreckage, and ties a tourniquet around her bleeding, dangling body part? Then I go back to the car and get her grandson out before the car explodes into a fire? She will probably scream "I'd rather die, then have you touch me" I mean after all I have cooties. 

What is she going to do when a human being she believes to be lower then her, helps her, in her time of need? What if that person is me, the one she so rudely disrespected, because of her ignorance? She believes that not all humans are the same. Not all people deserve respect and dignity.

Yep, America has it's scar, Racism, and the way we enslaved Africans and treated them like they were so different from us. India has outlawed, the Caste System, yet it still is ingrained on the people. We have outlawed slavery, but we still have had to, and have struggled with racism.

What the hell is wrong with people? Why do we walk right into ignorance and pretend were so smart? “Oh were not judging humans, were being business like” Yeah Right. By not letting me into your little funding group because I refused to answer the college questions, you just did an Indian Caste system/ American racism ignorance behavior.

You see I have been to college, but college never worked out for me. They mostly wanted my money and they had no idea how to shape my gifts. And I have gifts! And really, come on, Bill Gates, Mark Zurkerberg, okay I'm not smart like them. Yet, there are so many people that are successful and they did not complete college. Why would you focus on this? Every idea is an opportunity. Not just the ones from people who go to college, or graduated from college, or intend to go to college. Are you crazy? How can very intelligent people be so ignorant? Well, that doctor was super smart, but she had her countries history ingrained into her being. Maybe your funding group has something ingrained in you?

I would never be interested in your group in the future, because you lack the human condition: passion for all beings. Oh you can judge on skin color, birth placement, education, age, male or female, all you want. The truth is: the ignorance you displayed has only accomplished one thing ~ not looking at the idea. 

Give Trust A Chance When Doing Business Long Distance

I'm in this funny position, stuck between the new technology and the way it was done in the past. Sort of like the day my mother decided to retire when her company announced they were going to get computers! My mother was terrified of this new thing called a computer. She was so scared that she retired a few years earlier then she had wanted to, just to avoid learning about this new scary thing.

Myself, I embraced it, even though I had a lot of struggles with them. I was determined to understand this new thing. I wasn't scared, but I have a friend who has never owned one and knows absolutely nothing about the internet. WOW, she is missing so much. She could be in my Facebook group with all of our childhood friends and find that keeping in touch has never been easier. Yet she is sort of like my mother, she likes to hold onto the old way of doing things. She likes to call you and talk on the phone. Not that that is a bad thing, it's just that we could be in touch a whole lot more often in the social network world. But she knows nothing about it.

This brings me to my point about trust. In this new internet world we are in, I found that I had to learn how to trust doing business. Yes, it used to be that you did business primarily with companies in your own city. You would always generally just walk into a business and do business in a physical building, with real life people in front of you.

The internet changed that. Now I do business with people in many other states and other countries. And it's super AWESOME. Yet at first I did not trust them. Because I came from the old way of doing things, how the hell could I trust a business that I could not physically walk into?

Well I trusted someone only one hours drive from me and they ripped me off 3 thousand dollars. They never did one inch of code on the web site I wanted built. Finally I cut them lose and found another web builder.

ChopdawgStudios, I was interested in them building my website. But they were like 1,775 miles away. I could not visit them. I could not go and find them and beat them up if they did not deliver! So we discussed all the details, by phone and email. I really, really liked them, but I was terrified. Was it just a scam? Could someone be wanting to rip me off? Of course that can happen. How do you prove they are trustworthy? Get references. But those could be set ups themselves, if it's a scam. Check out legal records. Yeah I did that. Still, I was super terrified when I sent them a 8 thousand dollar check. All I could think was, I'm sending 8K to some stranger I met on the internet. Gulp! This could be an even bigger rip off then the loser who lives one hour drive from me.

It wasn't a rip off. It turned out to be a super great business relationship that I still have today with Chopdawg Studios. I found a great bunch of really incredible people who deliver what they say they will do, and more. I could not be happier.

Yet this is the world we live in now. You could be in some super small town of two thousand people and doing business with some people in a city of 19 million people. I think overall that most of us humans are good. Most people do good business, yeah your going to stumble upon the scam artist like I have. We can never rid our society of them, just cut your losses and get away from them as fast as possible, and even though it seems hard to trust the next guy. If your gut tells you it's okay, then it probably is.

My gut did warn me about the scam artist, yet I fell into it. Then my gut made me worry about the truthful man. Yet I took the chance to trust again and I'm thankful I did. 

My Cousin's Body Was Split Into Thirds By A freight Train.

One Minnesota morning, my cousin Van put his jogging clothes on and left his new apartment that he shared with his beautiful girlfriend. He would never return to it. He left his suicide note and headed for the railroad tracks.

The train conductor said he had no doubt it was a suicide, because he saw him lay down across the tracks. He didn't slip and fall, he wasn't trying to get out of the way of the train. Van wanted to die, and that day he did.

I was thinking about Van this weekend because his lovely sister came out to visit us here in Colorado. Van was her only sibling. She misses him dearly. I can see the great big hole in her, it's like a sadness that drips from her very being.

Now Van had a very special talent, he could remember and quote almost every statistic in any sport. He loved sports. I think he would have worked for ESPN one day if he had lived. Yet Van had the family curse as I like to call it. A depression so all encompassing that to survive it, well, it's tough. I know, I had to deal with the family curse when I was in my twenties. I had my suicide attempts. Somehow I made it through it.

You know that show Dexter about the serial killer? He has to pretend he has feelings. I had to pretend I didn't. I had to go on living and pretending that I wasn't depressed. I sort of just had to ignore my feelings. I rarely get depressed now, but it comes around for a visit every so often. The best thing I found to get rid of it is exercise. It's hard to be depressed when your almost dead from working out.

If you find yourself thinking about suicide, please reach out for help. There are lots of people you can talk to, there is plenty of help out there. The one thing that always kept me from killing myself is this: Were going to die anyway, why not hang around and see what life becomes? Why not set some goals and see If you can achieve them? Your sorrow and your depression may turn out like mine, it might just leave you alone and you'll be free to be happy, but you won't know that if you're not around anymore.

You don't have to worry about killing yourself, were all going to die, so take it off the table of choices and start living!

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 

Entrepreneurs Are Loners – This Could Be True.

Tonight I've been trying to learn yet another software program. Making a video! I think I'm going to be a software expert one day. At least I'm getting pretty good at hacking around the program and figuring out how to use it with out reading the help file. Whaaa laaaa. Presto, I don't know crap!

I've read a ton about what makes an entrepreneur an entrepreneur. There are so many articles about us. They love trying to figure us out, and labeling us with all kinds of labels. The one label about us being loners, yeah I've thought about that label, and I think it's pretty much correct. I am a loner, yet I'm also extremely social, when I'm in a social setting. You would never guess, that I spend a ton of time alone, thinking, creating, and building.

I don't always like the alone thing, yes it gets lonely. Some day when my startups take off, I'll be able to hire a crew and, well I'm sure I'll be seeking that alone time. I'll be to freaked out by all the people around me. Ahhhh.

I don't really know why entrepreneurs are loners, but it's not loner in the bad sense. Were not going to devise some horrible plan to hurt others, oh no, were all about helping others. Most the time I don't really plan to be alone, it just seems to work out that way. So I make use of time, and study and build things. We create good.

I'm adding my first ever homemade video! LOL, I should have learned this about 20 years ago. So cut me some slack. I barley know how to use the program. I'll add voice and music later. I need a video for my crowd funding campaign. You might not understand this video because, I have to add another part to it in the beginning, but I don't know how to do that yet. : - )

Enjoy your alone time ~ create good

Crowd Funding: Not So Easy To Start A Campaign

I'm building a campaign on Indiegogo for the new startup I want to build. It's not that easy to fill out one of these applications. You have to come up with a pitch that people will understand upon reading. That's not always easy, in fact pitching is an art that I have not mastered, yet I have become better at it.

Sometimes when I have pitched DigiThin I have totally blew it. I had the pitch down and then for some unknown reason all thought slips out of my brain and a bunch of mumbling comes out and then the wrinkled faces stare back at me. It's the moment you know you bombed it. 

The other thing that bothers me about building a campaign is the fact that you MUST have a video explaining your product or idea. Well, that would be okay if I didn't watch all the other videos on all the other campaigns. I know a tiny bit about video and these are mostly professionally done, which means it cost between 2k to 5k to get one made at this level of quality. 

Well the whole point of starting a campaign is because you have no money. Oh but if I want to compete in running an effective campaign I"m going to have to have a pretty good video, so either I have to learn how to make one or, I have to convince someone who can make one, to make me one free of charge.

The other thing that is frustrating about starting a campaign is that you have to offer perks. Well if you are starting a company from scratch, you don't have anything to offer. You have nothing but the idea in your head. Hmmmm 

So now I have to come up with perks, and a high quality video. I shall do it, because I so want to build a Social Strength Social Network.  

Let me know if you have any ideas on what kind of perks I can offer. It would be appreciated. 

Thanksgiving: My 2 Bite Experiment, and The Worry Of Alzheimer’s.

I hope your Thanksgiving with your family, and your friends was, and still is going well.

Mine was really good this year. Some extended family came in to Denver that I have not seen in years, and that made it extra special. My cousins wife and their son came, but my cousin could not come because he is in a nursing home. Yes, he is only 61 years old and he developed early onset Alzheimer's.

Audi is really happy in the nursing home. He is a happy Alzheimer's patient. It breaks my heart that he is not with us, and then I have thoughts, of what will be my fate? Could my brain decide to do that? It's scary, because we do not know what could be our fate as we get older.

I was doing an experiment this year for Thanksgiving. My trainer had told me that the best thing to do on Thanksgiving was to take two bites of everything. So I thought about that and decided that I was going to experiment with it and do it. Here is what happened.

I had to go to two family Thanksgivings as usual. So the first one I put exactly what looked like two bites of food on my plate, but not of everything offered. I just put two bites of what I was interested in eating. Now I have to tell you, I felt like I was some kind of anorexic. I had bird portion sizes on my plate. You know other people check out your plate just as much as they check out your body. And of course certain people in your family will make comments on what you put on your plate.

Surprisingly no one commented on my plate this year. Now that is a first! I can not believe no one said, “Is that all you are eating?” “have some more of this” Nope, it was a good year. This year no one commented on what I put or didn’t put on my plate.

Surly though, I was expecting comments, because I had hardly any food on my plate. It was literally two bites of, mashed potato's, two bites of turkey, two bites of green beans, two bites of cranberry sauce, two bites, of stuffing, two bites of pumkin pie. That's it! Guess what, I didn't over eat and I didn't feel deprived of anything. I felt perfectly fine with just eating that.

It was a great experiment. Two bites of everything, or two bites of everything you want.

I'm really happy I did this experiment, I hope others will try it in the coming holiday parties. It's actually quite amazing. I think I had the best Thanksgiving ever, because I do not feel overstuffed, I do not feel tired, I do not feel deprived. I feel awesome. I feel blessed. 

I'd love to hear how your Thanksgiving went.

~ Jana

The Roller Coaster Inside My Startup Body

Who doesn't love riding a roller coaster? The problem is, this one is on the inside of my body. Ahhh, I don't know how long I can ride this emotional roller coaster. Each day is completely insane. I could be up and down 100 times in that day or I could stay super high all day, then the next day could be a super down day.

I feel like maybe I have bi-polar, but it's not that, it's just the symptoms of someone working hard at building a startup and then taking that startup to the next level. It's super hard work chasing the American dream, building your own business. Yet, I have learned so much, and met so many fine people, I don't think I'll get off the coaster any time soon. In fact probably never.

Luckily my friends and family have always thought I was a bit crazy, so this roller coaster problem blends right into my personality.

Safe travels and the best of Thanksgiving to you all.

Peace and love

~ Jana

When I Was Thin I thought I Was Fat, When I Was Fat I thought I Was Thin.

Ohh the psychological workings of a person with a yo-yo weight problem. That would be me.

It's funny when I was literally 110 pounds, I would look in the mirror and I would see a fat person. I truly thought I was fat. Wow, I was skin and bones and still in my childhood body. I was not fat, but that is what I believed and saw.

Later in life I did gain weight, I went up and down for years, but when I stuck at my overweight weight for years, I would actually look in the mirror and think I was thin.

Now how can this be? Why would I think I was fat when I was thin, and thin when I was fat? This makes no sense.

Yet I know that many people have this same problem as me. It's some kind of twisted body image. It's completely insane. The scale tells the truth, but people like me refuse to stand on it and know the truth. We go along lying to ourselves, telling ourselves that were thin, when we can't fit into our pants! It truly is an insanity condition, to live with a weight problem.

How are we going to get over this? How are we going to admit the truth and change our behavior to get the results we so desire?

By stepping on the scale and not letting it make us want to eat even more.

By stepping on the scale and not letting it make us feel like horrible failures.

By stepping on the scale and using that number to change.

By stepping on the scale and being strong because we know the truth.

If you know the truth – then you have the information to change.

Don't be afraid ~ 

Wrapping Your Head Around The Self Judgment Of Yourself

Today I did a photoshoot, with DigiThin's photographer Cody. We both work out regularly. He is super buff, I'm getting there. So we took turns at who would pose and who would be the photographer.

We both found out that being behind the camera was so much better then being in front of it. It is super hard to pose, and I have so much respect for models, it's not an easy-peasy job at all, it's super hard.

You have to put your body into positions that are not normal. You have to twist part of your body one way and the other part the other way, all the while, by sucking in your gut, holding up your chin, dropping your shoulders, and putting your hands in the right position.

On top of that you have the human problem going on. Yeah that problem with our self judgment of ourselves. Both Cody and I have done the selfie photo shoot, and I'm not talking holding your cell phone out and snapping, I'm talking setting up a shoot, and hitting the timer button and running out in front of the camera and posing.

Even doing that, by yourself all alone with no one else around, it's really odd, but you find yourself incredible nervous. WHY? This is something both Cody and I asked ourselves. How can we be nervous taking pictures of ourselves alone? This makes no sense. One would think that being alone with no one else around that taking a picture of yourself would be easy, but it's not. It's easy on your cell phone, but if you set up a real photo shoot scene, it's nerve racking.

We also learned today that we both have harsh judgments of ourselves. When we put the shots on the computer we both found things about ourselves that we did not like and it really bothered us both, yet we did not see the flaws in the other person.

It is us, ourselves, who judge ourselves the most harsh. I don't know why us humans do this but I think it causes us problems in life. I think we have to get away from it. Cody had all these things that he thought was wrong with him and I saw none of that. I only a saw a beautiful man with muscle and a super beautiful smile. I'm not really sure what he thought of my shots, but he seemed surprised I had a big beer belly, he said I never saw that in real life. How did the camera show that? (drinking too much beer)

I think us humans, I think we judge ourselves to harshly. No one judges us to the extreme’s we judge ourselves. I don't know how I'm going to get past this, but I'm going to try, because I should not condemn my flaws, if others don't see those in me, then why do I? I think it should start with believing what others say. If they say you look good, then I should believe that and not go down the list of flaw's I think I have, and start condemning myself. I am a beautiful woman, no matter what my age. I am not perfect, but I am beautiful.

Take Cody for example, here he is 25 years old, an Afghanistan war vet, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with him in my eyes. He is beautiful. He takes care of his body, but he is not perfect. None of us are. Yet he thought he had things wrong with him.

As long as you and I are alive, then we have nothing wrong with us. As long as we are working on being good humans to each other and helping others, then there is nothing wrong with us. We are all beautiful – So smile and don't listen to that self judgment, because it's wrong

Pssst - Don't be afraid to comment, just because no one else has. I'd love to hear your voice on all my postings! : - )

The New Social Networks - Social Strenght

I am building another startup. It's a Social Strength Social Network. 

DigiThin will still exist, and continue to grow.

The Social Strength Network is the off spring of DigiThin. DigiThin can scale, but this social strength social network has immensely more scale-ability. 

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It's Social, it's free, it's going to be amazing. You see all the trees in the picture? Well, they are social, just like us. We can stand together in the light. We can stand together in the dark. We can help each other. 

Social Strength is the the new networks. The new pipes of the internet. 

We will build them - keep your eyes looking for them - Because like the picture, we stand together! And rainbows happen........


Looking for one, or a team of Technical Co-Founders to build this social network. 

Talk to me jana@digithin.com

Look into the future and build what's missing - Paul Graham

Social Networks Take Over The World

I was feeling kinda down today about my startup DigiThin. I named my blog appropriately, it's a long shot, that only I can see the value in. As Paul Graham would put it. “Most successful founders tend to work on ideas that few besides them realize are good. Which is not that far from a description of insanity, till you reach the point where you see results.”

It seems as though insanity is pretty much the only world I live in. It's pretty insane to think that I could help millions of people lose weight, just by talking to them. Hmmmm it could work.

Oh well, while that startup is cooking it's way out of being insane and forming itself into normal. I'm working on my second startup. I'm building a Social Strength Social Network.

Now you might think, oh man we have too many social networks already. I don't think so. I pretty much think Social Networks are going to take over the world, just as Blogs have. After all according to GaryVaynerchuk they are the plumbing pipes of the internet. And if you remember those old houses build 100 years ago had those old lead pipes. Copper had to come along and smoke them out of the scene. So too will more and more social networks come along and smoke out all the current social networks we love and have today.

So I'm looking for a technical co-founder, you must know these things: PHP,HTML5, CSS3, JavaSScript, jQuery, AJAX.

Lets build some new pipes.

Talk to me jana@digithin.com

Look into the future and build what's missing – Paul Graham

The Problem Was College, Not Condoms.

Isn't it funny how you try to plan out your life and life never seems to go that way? What you dreamed of doing, never seems to happen, because you have to pay the bills, so you have to spend countless hours at the job, that well, pays the bills and you don't really like it?

I was not the type to decide “oh yeah I want to be a doctor, nurse or electrician.” I went to college every decade of my life. Yep, I went in my teens, then my twenties, then in my thirties, and still again in my forties. Geez what the hell was wrong with me? How come I could never find a career that I could complete?

The problem was College. You see college, was only looking into making money, they only wanted to teach what they think people wanted to learn, or at least what was the most popular things. For me, being extremely creative, they had no options for me. Or at least they did not seek to find out what I was really made of. They only wanted my money. They didn't care if I graduated or not. They didn't care if I was in the wrong fields or not. All they cared about was, if I paid.

All along my search for a career, I was always doing one thing. Thinking of ideas to help others. Inventing products in my mind. In fact if I had developed one of the first products I wanted to do, I'd be a f****** billionaire right now. That product was Condoms. The time was the early 80's and AIDS was hitting the scene, and scaring people away from having FREE unprotected sex.

The one thing I knew is that condoms SUCK. Not only do men hate them, but hey, us women also hate them, because it's not the real thing. Skin on Skin, is like the ultimate feeling, who want's fake? No one.

I wanted to develop condoms that were actually desirable to use. Condoms that made sex real and gave you protection from this horrible scary STD.

What did I do? Nothing. I was 23 years old and the word StartUp did not exist. The idea that anyone could do anything they thought up did not exist. Funding may have, but that was also a world that did not exist to me.

Yeah, I had this idea and that idea month after month, year after year. What would I do with these ideas I had in my head? Nothing. So all I did was live life to pay the bills, all the while adding more ideas upon ideas that only haunted me, tormenting me, because I had no idea how to turn them into reality. They were always trapped in my head.

Condoms have come along way since then, yeah they got it, they tried to improve on the product that really sucks, they have all kinds of different choices now, and they have special products that can enhance the pleasure of both. Yet these ideas came along, way after the point of when I wanted to change that product.

So my point is, that if you have an idea that nags you, you should follow it no matter what. You may be way ahead of the idea then society is, and if you pursue it you may develop the product that helps humanity.

I may revisit the condom problem someday. It's still a problem, no one likes them, even if they work. Maybe I'll make the one that works and feels just right...Whew so sweet............ Keep chasing your ideas, they matter, they could help people. Don't give up.

10 Reasons Why Eminem's Music Can Help Your StartUp [EXPLICIT] Not For Everyone.

1. Having a great beat in the background, with F****** as the core message, suck my dick as the highlights, and I'm the best thing you ever had, well it sounds good to me. Who wouldn't want to F*** after a hard days work on their startup?

2. Working the streets to get your traction, pitching to VC's and Angels, pounding the social networks, and rejections are constant with looks of wrinkled faces glare at you, like you're the lowest form of a startup, well you have your beat up old pinto to drive home in, and F*** some more.

3. You don't have to worry about Heaters, Millimeters, or getting your A** kicked in the parking lot. The worst you got was another rejection.

4. If you stumble upon the track called “Lose Yourself” you might find some hope in the words “Success is my only Mother F****** Option, Failures Not”

5. When you're really frustrated, you can have Pussy On Toast, with a Bitch on your dick. And for the female startup builders, there is so much sexual talk, you'll find yourself secretly excited, shhhhh don't tell.  

6. The music can change and bring you into a world of inspiration, filled with a kindness of someone who really has a heart filled with love. Yeah those touching moments when your startup means more to you then anything, it's what you believe in, it's what your F****** killing yourself for, sleep deprived, psychotic, walking the borderline of insanity and eating ramen.

7. You might live in Salem’s Lot, with weekly break-ins taking your laptops and all your servers, no worries, just go get your lap dance at the White Trash Party.

8. When you are really beaten down by your startup struggles, listen to “I'm Not Afraid” you will be empowered to keep fighting for what you believe in, even though that black cloud follows you around.

9.  “I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like, and right now it's steal pipe in my wind pipe” -Eminem. Yeah, sometimes it's really tough building your startup, but we don't have it as tough as he did, he didn't give up.

10. If you find yourself offended by this post and by the lyrics of Eminem, well I'm not. I can never be offended by someones personal culture. Keep taking risk in your startup adventures, keep opening your mind up to discovering gifts for humanity. 

Check out Eminem's new release MMLP2 I just love his double fisted F*** You. These things make me smile : - )  

My Fantasy For America's Biggest Loser

On America's Biggest Loser they have a competition, the teams pitted against each other. The team that win's, usually win's some benefit for there team. While the defeated team gets nothing.

My fantasy is that DigiThin would be the winning teams prize. This is why: It's a perfect product for people who want to lose weight. It's not a drug, it's not a work out. It's exactly what the contestant need when they are not working with their trainers.

Well what is it? DigiThin is convenient empowerment mp3 weight loss coaching. So the winning team would get a little tiny mp3 player loaded with 100 weight loss coaching tracks. Yes, they would get to have coaching 24/7, all the while the other team has to go off on there own. The losing team would have no coaching on there own time, wile the winning team would have DigiThin to keep them coached up while they don't have their trainers in person.

The team that won the prize of DigiThin would have such an advantage. I have absolutely no doubt that they would lose more weight then the other team, I even bet, they would lose more weight then any team ever on America's Biggest Loser.

Why do I think that? Because it's the problem we all struggle with. Our own mind. You have seen on America's Biggest Loser that, when the contestants have to go home for a week or two, or when they have to do it on there own, well most often they don't lose much weight if any at all.

Don't you wonder why the contestants do worse when they do not have their trainers? It's the same for all of us. When someone is coaching you face to face, it's empowering, it gives you strength to do better. But when were left to wonder around with our own minds, well our minds are filled with all the old thoughts that got us into trouble in the first place. Those old thoughts are not easy to get rid of. They live inside our heads, and play when were not even thinking about them. Then there we are eating stuff we never planned on eating.

Yeah my fantasy for Americas Biggest Loser is for this product to be put to the ultimate test. I think America's Biggest Loser and many other people are trying so hard to help America lose weight, and I thank them for that. DigiThin is the new frontier of our time. It's the idea that we need to open our minds up to. I mean, what have we been doing the last fifty years? Has it worked? America is getting fatter.

It's time we look into new ideas that might seem unfamiliar and odd, because we can't keep doing what were doing. Magic pills, special food diets, weird workouts, risky surgeries, yeah none of that works. And some of those things will lead to your death. I have seen it. Why not try the truth? And live......

There is one truth that has been said for the last fifty years or so. You have to burn more calories then you consume to lose weight. Simple. One very simple statement, yet we can't seem to do that simple step. WHY? Our minds.

The root of the problem is our minds. No you are not crazy. You're just like me. I'm pretty normal. I figured out what the weight loss problem is, because I suffered as you have. I did the yo-yo diet, I tried all the magic pills, including the one recalled because it has killed people and caused Hepatitis C in others. I had my body wrapped in saran wrap. I ate nothing but protein, till the point I developed ketones, I have done the circuit in search of weight loss as you have. I know the struggle very well.

So why would listening to weight loss coaching be the answer? Just watch America's Biggest Loser, and what do you see? People coaching people! Trainers words impacting those contestants. So why wouldn't coaching 24/7 not work for you?

DigiThin is great because you do not have to have a set time to check in with your coach. You do not have to pay hundreds of dollars to have an online coach. You pay as you would for purchasing music. Then you get a ton of coaching tracks that you can listen to over and over as you do music. I tell you, you will be empowered to change. You will see what the weight loss problem is.

You will see how empowerment coaching is as effective as a live trainer. We have to live with food choices 24/7. That's food temptations 24/7 in your face. Well it's hard to turn away from those temptations, but if you just hit PLAY your life can change. Isn't that healthy? Just a voice to encourage you to use the POWER you already have.

Be empowered to change! Be apart of the new frontier of weight loss! Stand up for your life! And be FREE from the struggle!

I care about your beautiful life and I want you to succeed!

You can find free tracks in my Twitter @digithin or on Soundcloud and of course on the DigiThin website.

Give a listen and take Care Of Yourself

With Love

~ Jana

How Gary Vaynerchuk Became A DigiThin Blessing

The struggle of the baby entrepreneur is plagued with rejections. As I talked about this in my post about being happy to be rejected from Y Combinator, and that I have become stronger and better at dealing with the emotional annihilation when yet again, you hit a rejection.

I invented the rule: For every rejection you get two blessing. 

I am loving this rule because it seems to work, with out fail. Every single time I get a rejection, an amazing blessing or two pop into the picture. Yep, this week I suffered another business rejection. Oh yeah, I boo whooed about it a bit, slipped into self pity a bit, then bounced back, to get my ass kicked by Joshua Davidson, and that was blessing number one in disguise.

Joshua is one of the youngest most brilliant entrepreneurs on the scene. His company ChopDawg Studios built my website. His team did not just build my website, they also scoop me up every time I hit a roadblock, and lay flattened on the pavement. They help me out every step of the journey, with out hesitation. Sometimes that includes a little ass kicking. So Joshua's ass kicking blessing lead to blessing number two.

Gary Vaynerchuk, was blessing number two for DigiThin. Upon complying with my ass kicking strategy, imposed by Joshua, I  had to do some studying as my assignment. During this video watching of Mr. Vaynerchuk, I had fallen into a sign up for this or sign up for that type of thing. So I did. Well, one of those things said, email me, that would be Mr.Vaynerchuk. I don't know why that little pop up box instructed me to email him, but that's what it said to do, so I did it.

I thought I had nothing to say to Mr. Vaynerchuk, but turns out my mind thought of something to say, not much, just a little tiny comment. I hit enter and would I ever expect to get a reply back from the CEO of Vaynermedia ? Not a chance. I'm feeding at the bottom of the ocean of entrepreneurs, my head has not even come out of the water, and he's at the opposite end of the entrepreneur scale, he's like on the moon, his power shines all over the world. Why would he respond to me? And why would he have the time to?

But he did. He said ten words to me, and you know what that did to me? I swam a little higher up towards the surface. He empowered me, the small fish. He gave me HOPE. His action to reply to me was indeed a blessing. He is the man on the moon, why should he care about a tiny little fish? Because he knows were all here to help each other. His action gave me the power to keep fighting.

When us entrepreneurs are fighting for our startup, were fighting for what we believe in. I'm fighting for all the people who struggle to lose weight, the obese, the morbidly obese. I'm fighting for those people, because I want to set them free from the suffering that I lived through for years. I know how painful it is to struggle with a weight problem. I want to bless them, all of them, big and small fish.

Thanks to Joshua Davidson and Gary Vaynerchuk for DigiThin's two blessings this round of rejection.

For every rejection you will get two blessings. Keep building your startups. I'm actually looking forward to my next rejection. : - )  

~ Jana

DigiThin's Empowerment Weight Loss Coaching Exposed. How Is It Going To Help You Lose Weight?

Have you ever been in a classroom, and the teacher was so inspirational, that every word they said to you, well you learned the lesson, and not only that, you felt this feeling of empowerment. You felt exceptionally filled with a knowledge so awesome that you kinda felt, well high?

This just doesn't happen in a classroom, it happens everyday everywhere. Yes there is someone who has the gift of making others open up there mind to a new concept or a new skill. These people are people who we all have had come into our lives at one time or another.

So what is it, when you “hear” a voice verses just read it? I could read a ton of books on a subject, but if I went to hear an exceptional speaker on the topic, I would probably learn more then what I had read. At least for me that's the way it is.

I read a book and all of it sounds so great, but once I walk away from the book, it's almost like I didn't read it. Sure some of it sticks inside my mind, but a lot of it fades, quickly.

Think about your favorite music, don't you hit play over and over on a song you just love, and you cannot get enough of it? It makes you feel great, and it empowers you in some way.

Well, this is DigiThin. I have not written a DigiThin book and I will try hard to NEVER do that. This is why: DigiThin is based on the human voice, and hearing the message instead of reading it, it might just stick in your mind a way a book wouldn’t. Plus you can listen to it on the go, where as you can't read a book and drive.

The DigiThin coaching tracks are designed to be short, just like songs. And you can carry them around with you, right there on your cell phone or mp3 player. Then when you're in a fix and you are being tempted to wolf down some high calorie snack that wont help you lose a pound. You just hit play, and be empowered to choose wisely.

When I worked out to Jillian Michaels work out dvd's. I did those work outs often. And little pieces of what she was coaching on would stick in my mind. Like “if you want a six pack, then you're willing to do the work right?” Yes I wanted a six pack. I wasn’t exactly willing to do the work, yet there is no other way to get a six pack beside workout your body and eat clean. It stuck in my mind. I still hear her saying that to me to this day.

DigiThin is convenient empowerment mp3 weight loss coaching. With over one hundred coaching tracks, you'll be sure to find the words that YOU need to hear, to help you make the changes in your life that will shred the weight.

There are no magic pills, and hey you don't have to work out if you don't want to, but I highly recommend it. There is no gimmicks here. These coaching tracks are just the truth, and hey haven’t we heard enough lies about losing 10 or 20 pounds a week? Haven’t you tried almost all of those guaranteed weight loss products? I have. They don't work. Surprisingly the truth does.

You can download a FREE coaching bundle right now at www.digithin.com You can also find me on Twitter @digithin I'm posting new tracks I am writing for this holiday season, because right now were heading into weight gain season. Wouldn't it be nice if this year, you don't have that New Years Resolution to lose weight? Because you already are. Be Empowered! 

With love ~ Jana