Wednesday, December 24, 2014

The: It Would Be Grand Holiday Season...but

Ahh wow, how do I carry on? It's been an extremly hard year for me, and I had shitty 2013, so I set myself up with hope that 2014 was going to be smoking awesome! I had started the year with all kinds of fantasies and dreams of good life to come. 

I do try to think positive and be a positive person, yet it's kinda hard when death and disappointments persist. I know my life is not bad. It's not even that bad. I'm not homeless. I have a beautiful husband that loves me dearly, two great kids I love dearly. No dog, but I have a live in roommate dog that I pretend is mine(Jenny). 

If you have been a regular reader, I'm sorry I've written about so much disappointment and death, but this is how it is,or how it has been. Right now we are sadly awaiting the death of our beloved brother in law Rob. He is on hospice care now which is a good thing. He can have RN's come to his house and give him pain medication and give him tender loving care to ease his suffering from the horrible pain the cancer is giving him. Of course we pray for a miracle so that Rob can see his one year old daughter grow up and she can have her dad, and his wife of two years can have her husband, but it's not looking like that will happen. Rob is a young entrepreneur and his life is being cut short. He just developed a rare cancer that is fast spreading and rarely can anyone survive it.
Rob, his wife Sara and Arielle 


Yeah, it would be a Grand Holiday Season...but I don't know, it feels twenty shades of sorrow. 

On the startup front, I have so many things to share with you, but I just can't write about it right now. I keep wondering how will I smile at my kids when they open up their Christmas presents? All I will be thinking is how much I love them and hoping their life will not be cut short or filled with unrelenting struggle. 




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