Why I Rarely Post Pictures Of Me

I use only a few pictures of myself publicly and there are a few reasons. There is no order to the reasons.

• I'm not cute, I never was
• I'm not photogenic
• My Twitter Pic is of me when I was twenty five years old. Yes, right before I attempted my uptenth suicide attempt. I use it on Twitter because there was no internet back then. And if I had succeeded in my mission to die, well not one person who follows me on Twitter today, would ever have seen that photo. I also don't remove it as people have come to know me with that photo, if I take it off they could unfollow me as they won't know who the hell is the new chick.
• People say amazingly hurtful things when they see photos of me. This is probably my number one reason I don't show myself. Yep, because I posted my photo yesterday, I got hate mail. Really? Truly. Because of this reason, I do not like to post photo's of myself. I've been told many hurtful comments about my appearance, even though I'm not running for a beauty pageant. I'm building a startup. One man asked me if I was really a man trying to be a woman, that really hurt. Because of the photo I posted on my last post a man spewed out "You have the nose of a black person" This was not said in the way as if an African American person can have a good nose. It was said in the way as if I was a horrible person, because I have a black person's nose and that black people only have horrible noses. I wrote the person back and said, you are an immature racist! But I felt the racism a black person must feel, even though I can only feel about a smidgen compared to what they face their entire life. How harmful is it to be judged on your appearance. the color of your skin, your weight, the size of your nose? WTF? To be homely like me, or be of an undesirable race? It's the saddest thing I have ever had to deal with. It's so hurtful, that I can't bear to deal with it, so I don't. I just don't post photo's of myself. Cause I don't want to hear immature, ignorant people's statements. I suppose I'm not strong enough to hear them. Or more likely that I will attack back. I'll stand up for myself, yet I have found that when I do that, I often have become bullied even more severely. It's best to just ignore these kinds of people. And get them out of your life quickly.

                                                    Trapped In Homely Prison : - /