I was born a sensitive person. This was a problem for me for many years. As a kid I got picked on often, since they knew I wore my emotions on my sleeve, they knew they could make me cry.
So bullies run-a-muck on me for many years. Now I've grown up and I am stronger. I rarely cry. Except for when they play that violin music in movies and shows with some sad story. I always cry then.
What I tend to do now is have deep empathy for others. I had sensed some impending doom was heading my way, and it did. But it wasn't my doom. It was someone elses whom I care deeply for.
Today I found myself filled with a sorrow even worse than the sorrow I felt for the recent death of my brother Mark. As much as being born so sensitive had caused me problems in life, it is a gift like that tormentor in me. I am not sure how this gift works. I am hoping that because today I was filled with an enormous sadness, that overtook my soul, that the person whom is the one who has been suffering the longest, in a prison of pain, that maybe somehow I carried the burden for that person. Maybe the weight of the crushing issue was lifted from this person's life, for just a bit.
I have been in plenty of horrible situations in my life, where I had done wrong, made wrong choices, hurt others, hurt my own self. Sometimes those situations can encase you in a hell that you think you deserve the ultimate punishment. Yeah, death.
I always wonder why my post Wrapping Your Head Around The Self Judgement of Yourself, is on my top ten most popular post list. I think it's because so many of us judge ourselves so severely. I'm guilty of condemning myself so severely. I think my heart and soul are heavy today, because I know if I had walked in the shoes, and did what this person had done. I know I would have killed myself. I have almost no capacity to forgive myself. Forgiving ourselves is a hard thing to do for some of us. I truly commend this person for being able to face this and think of the positive and look for something good to come out of it.
My heart hurts and is filled with empathy for this dear person in my life. Of course I forgive this person, and I do not feel this person should be punished or condemned in any way. The punishment was living in a personal hell. I do know that it's almost entirely impossible for this person to not fall into a pit of self judgment. And I think that is why my soul is in pain. In the months ahead, that damn tormenter could come calling, knocking on this person's door. Demanding payment for what we all do, make mistakes.
Showing posts with label Mistakes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mistakes. Show all posts
Friday, August 22, 2014
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Mistakes Make A Startup:Trep Wear and Gary Vaynerchuk!
Oh Man, do I ever hate that I make mistakes. Hmmm, this is so frustrating for me building startups, because I make mistakes everyday all day long! It's not that I think making a mistake is really bad. Or that, I think making a mistake is like I'm not perfect enough. It's that in all the jobs I've had in my life, I learn the job, I make mistakes often, but then I master the job and I make mistakes rarely.
Rarley Is The Key Word
On the startup road, such mistakes are an often occurrence that it kills me. I'm used to working for someone else and getting over the mistake period pretty quickly. In a startup, well, there is no mistake period! Mistakes are going to be everyday, all day long, for some undetermined amount of time. You can't escape it no matter what. You can't master it as fast as working for a long established company, no you can't.
I want to do a good job. I want to be the best at my job. So making mistakes are such hardship's on my soul. I want them to end quickly. I want the occasional mistake to be my norm.
If You Are Building A Startup, Mistakes Are The Brick Road
I don't know why mistakes can make me feel like such a loser or a fool. But they do. I think that's why I hate making them. Yet building a startup has taught me that a mistake is another brick in your startup road. You pave the road, then you can walk further. There is no other way around it.
My Silly Mistake Tonight
It was a small mistake, yet it really was an offensive mistake to me. How could I? How could I misspell the name of one of my most beloved mentor in the startup world? I've told myself a million times, "Don't mispronounce his name and whatever you do, DON'T misspell it" I added the c to Vaynerchuk! Oh damn, this hurts my company. There is no c in CHUK. I told myself this a million times, and still, I did it. I typed up the Tweet and sent it. Then I read what I wrote and as a tiny infraction as some may think it is, I thought it was rude, and not respectful to my mentor, one of the many who teach me how to be an entrepreneur. Damn.
Sorry Mr.
Mr. Gary Vaynerchuk, please forgive me. I'm a tiny person in the startup world. You and many others teach me, and I can't be grateful enough for all of you. Yeah, I'm gonna make a million more mistakes, some of them small, some of them big, and some of them the kind that seems no one can recover from, (those are the ones I dread) yet we all make that super big mistake. The one we think we can't recover from. But we can, can't we? There is never anything we can do that deserves the punishment of SILENCE or DEATH. Unless of course you commit a serious crime, and that deserves prison. Our mistakes, are not crimes, they are the bricks we have to place along the road, the startup road we build.
Trep Wear
The whole thing started because I saw this new startup getting ready to launch. @trepwear They have a super awesome idea. I did not gather enough information to tell you all about them, but I think they make T-shirts and other items that reflect startups, Treps, certain startups, and some of the cash they make on the items will be given to that startup, in the honor to help that startup raise funds to help them build great companies. Companies that will impact our world and lives. Yeah, that is a SMOKING IDEA. I love Trep Wear. And I hope you will too. : - )
The T-Shirt I Want From Trep Wear
The T-shirt I want Trep Wear to print, says: "Gary Vaynerchuk said, I had Balls" Yeah, that's right. It's a true story. He did tell me that. But he also totally kicked my ass and told me all the things I failed at, all the MISTAKES I made. Of course he was right. He told me off, but the one compliment he gave me is "I can tell you one thing, you have balls" Well, to me that is a very high compliment. I'd like to think I do have balls. I'm not giving up. I'm creating more and more startups and I will never stop. I will write with 6th grade grammar, speak like I'm a stoner, come off like a complete idiot, but I have balls! I'll talk to any VC, Angel or person who will listen to my ideas to make the world better, your life better, the life of someone at risk better.
I call my blog Long Shot Start Up Girl for two reasons. #1 I'm always looked at as a longshot or passed over. #2 The longshot pay off is....................?
So many turn away. It's the rejection that used to hurt me that now gives me BALLS.
Thank you Mr. Gary Vaynerchuk!
Rarley Is The Key Word
On the startup road, such mistakes are an often occurrence that it kills me. I'm used to working for someone else and getting over the mistake period pretty quickly. In a startup, well, there is no mistake period! Mistakes are going to be everyday, all day long, for some undetermined amount of time. You can't escape it no matter what. You can't master it as fast as working for a long established company, no you can't.
I want to do a good job. I want to be the best at my job. So making mistakes are such hardship's on my soul. I want them to end quickly. I want the occasional mistake to be my norm.
If You Are Building A Startup, Mistakes Are The Brick Road
I don't know why mistakes can make me feel like such a loser or a fool. But they do. I think that's why I hate making them. Yet building a startup has taught me that a mistake is another brick in your startup road. You pave the road, then you can walk further. There is no other way around it.
My Silly Mistake Tonight
It was a small mistake, yet it really was an offensive mistake to me. How could I? How could I misspell the name of one of my most beloved mentor in the startup world? I've told myself a million times, "Don't mispronounce his name and whatever you do, DON'T misspell it" I added the c to Vaynerchuk! Oh damn, this hurts my company. There is no c in CHUK. I told myself this a million times, and still, I did it. I typed up the Tweet and sent it. Then I read what I wrote and as a tiny infraction as some may think it is, I thought it was rude, and not respectful to my mentor, one of the many who teach me how to be an entrepreneur. Damn.
Sorry Mr.
Mr. Gary Vaynerchuk, please forgive me. I'm a tiny person in the startup world. You and many others teach me, and I can't be grateful enough for all of you. Yeah, I'm gonna make a million more mistakes, some of them small, some of them big, and some of them the kind that seems no one can recover from, (those are the ones I dread) yet we all make that super big mistake. The one we think we can't recover from. But we can, can't we? There is never anything we can do that deserves the punishment of SILENCE or DEATH. Unless of course you commit a serious crime, and that deserves prison. Our mistakes, are not crimes, they are the bricks we have to place along the road, the startup road we build.
Trep Wear
The whole thing started because I saw this new startup getting ready to launch. @trepwear They have a super awesome idea. I did not gather enough information to tell you all about them, but I think they make T-shirts and other items that reflect startups, Treps, certain startups, and some of the cash they make on the items will be given to that startup, in the honor to help that startup raise funds to help them build great companies. Companies that will impact our world and lives. Yeah, that is a SMOKING IDEA. I love Trep Wear. And I hope you will too. : - )
The T-Shirt I Want From Trep Wear
The T-shirt I want Trep Wear to print, says: "Gary Vaynerchuk said, I had Balls" Yeah, that's right. It's a true story. He did tell me that. But he also totally kicked my ass and told me all the things I failed at, all the MISTAKES I made. Of course he was right. He told me off, but the one compliment he gave me is "I can tell you one thing, you have balls" Well, to me that is a very high compliment. I'd like to think I do have balls. I'm not giving up. I'm creating more and more startups and I will never stop. I will write with 6th grade grammar, speak like I'm a stoner, come off like a complete idiot, but I have balls! I'll talk to any VC, Angel or person who will listen to my ideas to make the world better, your life better, the life of someone at risk better.
I call my blog Long Shot Start Up Girl for two reasons. #1 I'm always looked at as a longshot or passed over. #2 The longshot pay off is....................?
So many turn away. It's the rejection that used to hurt me that now gives me BALLS.
Thank you Mr. Gary Vaynerchuk!
Vay.ner.chuk
: - )
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