My Startup Soul Hurts

I'm not a hard person to work for, or work with. I've been in the workforce since I was twelve years old. I've come to understand the lazy worker, the super worker, and the pathetic worker, and I can work well with all of them.

I've seen the companies I work for hire seemingly great people just to turn around and fire them shortly there after. Judging a good hire is exceptionally hard. Some people can present amazing and turn out to be a pathetic lazy worker, who wants to get paid to do nothing. I'm sure to bet many people who interview horrible and don't get the job, surely were the best one to hire, yet so many companies will never know they passed on the great one, just because they interviewed poorly. 

I've failed at this a few times myself. In my last startup I hired two people who interviewed great, but turned out to be the lazy kind who do not live up to what they presented in the interview. 

Currently I'm struggling with the cofounder issue. Finding a cofounder is a big problem for many startup builders. That's why they have all these co founder dating sites. For six weeks I've been waiting for a cofounderslab meetup. Then days before it was to happen I took ill and could not go to the meeting. You do not know how much this upset me. I need to build a founding team, and I do have two people who say they are in, but  here again I've shared documents that we are to collaborate on and not one scratch of collaboration has occurred from either person. 

All that has occurred is people saying they want to be a part of Passdown and saying they can do this,and they can do that, but in the end, not one thing they say they will do has been done. What am I to think?

This is hard on my startup soul. My mind goes through all kinds of self doubt. I start asking myself questions. Am I asking too much of them? Am I mean or cruel? Am I a bully? What the hell is wrong with me, if I can get people to say yes, but I cannot get them to work?  Am I not good enough at the judging of people and I cannot weed out the ones that say yes, but don't work? Maybe the idea is flawed? Maybe it's a fucking stupid idea? Maybe I'm crazy? Then I think of all the founder dating sites and that reminds me, I'm not the only one with this problem. It's widespread in every workforce, and it's widespread in the startup world too. 

The thing is, if I joined someone elses startup and said I would do this and that, well I'm going to do it. If I'm not happy with the startup, then I'm going to turn in my resignation. I'm not going to say yes and do nothing. In fact sometimes I think I'm going to toss Passdown into the trash and join someone elses startup. I'd be a shining worker, who contributes not only to the growth of the idea but the shaping of it. 

I do not think I'm forcing my idea down anyones throat and making them do it. I just put the basic idea out there, I know the idea will change and morph with others input. That's what building a startup is. It's testing the idea out and pivoting when needed. It's adding to or taking parts of the idea out. It's humans creating something out of nothing. It's the most beautiful and rewarding work anyone can do. 

Would the startup Gods please send me technical cofounders that want to build something and not just say YES and do nothing? That's my prayer, and for the Bronco's to win. *just got the second part of my prayer answered. Thank you startup Gods.