Pandora Helps Founders Grief And Loneliness

One by one it started. My quitting addictions began with a pill I had been prescribed years ago for a neck injury. It was considered safe at the time. I had struggled with getting off it many times in the past. I'm done with it. I do have some trouble sleeping now, but it's okay.

After that I decided I had to clean up the rest of my life. I have 25 days off chewing tobacco. I'll never be out of the woods on this one. At one time I had eleven months, then I caved. As much as I might think I'll be safe two years down the road, all I have is one day to get through without using.

The next one is alcohol. Ahh, this one is proving to be a bit hard. I go a few days then a beer sounds good. I'm considering going to A.A. and maybe I will. I also am giving up junk food. Ohhh so many addictions. What it has left me with is an incredible loneliness. A deep grief, over the loss of all my addictions. A vast emptiness swallowing me. I wander around my house wanting them back as that will ease this deep pain I am in. Well, it won't. It will just cover up all the feelings I should have felt a long time ago and been done with.

 

For now this is what I have to face to change. I am finding that Pandora radio has become a great buddy of mine. The endless music I can listen to has softened the misery I am in. I hope by springtime, I will come out of this a better person.