I've Been A Bad Startup Girl Today

If I didn't get fired the other day from my Postmates job, I surely am today. Or the truth be told, I quit. I had to abandon my delivery that was in progress for many reason.

I had rejected this order two or three times. I knew it would be a hard delivery. As I'm new, I didn't want to be put in a tough situation. As you know, I was still learning the app. (you know the one you can't play around in to learn)Here is my other post about it, Founder Brought To Tears By iPhone. So I rejected the delivery. Finally feeling under pressure I caved and accepted it. It turned into a big fat nightmare. 

I followed the GPS directions as I drove. I get to my destination and it's The Denver Post. That's a newspaper company, not a pork sandwich shop. I look at the app, and it says my destination is a moving target. WHAT? A moving target? Oh, so I'm chasing a food truck? Well it was no where to be seen. I called for help as I'm needing to find the food to pick up so I can deliver it to the customer. It was a free sandwich. And I was to get $4.80 for delivering it. Well, I'm not going to pay $5 or $10 bucks to park, so I keep driving around looking for a meter. No meters were available. Around and around I went. 

During all this searching I start to panic. I feel terrible that I can't find the food truck, or a place to park. I feel terrible because the timer is on and I'm not going to make it. I'm not going to be prompt for the customer, this really upsets me. Tears start to spring up in me again. Here I am crying because I can't do a seemingly simple job, deliver packages.

So I did something really bad. I feel horrible about it. I turned the iPhone off and drove home. I quit. I feel absolutely like the biggest looser. I feel like a terrible, terrible person for doing this. I feel horrible for letting down this startup Postmates. I wanted to be one of their best drivers. At least that's the fantasy I've had for two weeks. My fantasy never had any of these real life problems in them. That's the problem with fantasies. I feel like I'll probably be rejected by the startup world cause I bailed on Postmates. This is not who I am. I don't just quit. I don't give up. But I did. What the fuck is wrong with me? What has happened to my ethics? What has happened to my faith in myself? What has happened to the dependable, reliable person I've always been? I'm broken and I don't know why. I failed Postmates and myself today.  : - /