To Be Like Oprah In The Fat Thin Cycle

I'm suffering a ton of pain. It was my own hands that has caused me to fall into a really deep pit of relapse. It's not that my weight loss coaching product does not work. It's that I chose not to use it. I wanted to eat as much as I wanted and drink a ton of alcohol for months in a row. It was some kind of self punishment disguised as treats and pleasure. It was a big fat lie that I let play in my head over and over as I stuffed in all the treats.

Yes I am human just like Oprah. There she was on national t.v. and her weight went up and down constantly all those years. I'm not as public as she is, and I sure know what it feels like to have to be fat again in a public way. It's horrible.

I also know what it feels like when people whom you thought were friends make hurtful “you're fat” comments. And then the silent looks from everyone else, and surly they are all thinking I'm a hypocrite. Didn't they see me fall into the pit? Why didn't they help me, instead of condemn me? 

People like me who are severe food addicts have to constantly be on the look out for that inner voice that tells us “Oh one more won't hurt” and the worst inner voice lie is “I don't care, I want it”

Yes I invented a product to help myself be free from the food addiction and it does work, when I choose to use it. Yet I am human like you, and I fell into the pit again. Do I want to go up and down in weight the rest of my life? Hell no. I want to be done with this crap.

Truly I can lose the weight and keep it off again. Eat clean, keep track of what and how much I eat, work out, don't drink alcohol excessively. And listen to DigiThin. You see DigiThin is the voice I use to stand up to that voice in my head. I have to hear the truth coming from the outside of my head, because the liar inside my head can overtake me month after month unless I shine that spotlight on it called DigiThin.

Call me a hypocrite, call me fat, call me human.

I have to say that people with food addictions, well, we have it worse then any alcoholic or drug addict. We have to eat every day. They don't need alcohol or drugs to live, we need food to live. So every meal we have to stand face to face with our addiction. And who is standing there ready to push us into the pit? That big fat liar in my brain. “Oh one more won't hurt” well it did.

Don't give up on your desire to lose weight. Use every tool you can get, to stand up to it. Get back in the game when you fall down. You and I will get it. Someday it will stick, and there will be no more falling into the pit. There will be no more snickers and hurtful comments. And your skinny jeans will fit.