Risk Takers: Often Looked At, As If They Were Weirdo’s

I've known my whole life that I was different. Oh yeah psychologist say we all feel like we are different. Maybe that's true, but for me, well I am.

I never fit into my family. My mom said, as she slashed her hand vertical in the air, along came all the kids one, two, three, four..... but when you came, you were different. There it was right out on the table, one of her kids was different, me.

The whole entire family knew I was the odd ball. So what happened? They picked on me. Just like in school, the normal group picks on the one who is not like them. This is what happened to me. My siblings did not know what to do with someone who was not like them. So they picked on me relentlessly.

Yes I had a horrible childhood. I don't remember liking one thing about it. I hated it, and I hated being alive. What kid thinks about killing their self when they are 7 years old? Me.

Since I never belonged in the world I was living in, I surly wanted to escape it. I did not know that us humans had the option of taking our own life, so what did I do? I locked myself in the closet or bedroom and went into dream land. I'd stay in there for hours dreaming up all kinds of stories, where I was happy, and all alone.

My childhood is probably why I became an entrepreneur. Since most of us entrepreneurs are loners, it seems to fit me well. But we don't really want to be alone, it's just that being alone seems to be the place that we receive the least amount of pain. If being constantly tortured means being with others, then alone is a better choice.

The other thing about entrepreneurs is that we take risk. Why do we? Well, who cares what others think about us, when being with others is usually painful? We don't care. We take risk because we are not like the group, we don't go along with them to fit in. We know we don't fit in, so we are free to take the risk.

Yet every time I take a risk I expose myself to them, the groups. They seem to have this power. It's the power of judgment. They look at the risk I took and they judge me. It used to bother me to be looked at like I'm a weirdo, but now it doesn't bother me. I know that without risk, discovering gifts for humanity won't happen.

I'm a risk taker, not a weirdo. I don't care what people think of the ideas I come up with. I'm just happy that I come up with ideas.

Keep building your startups

~ jana