Now I do not blame them from doing so, as this is their job. But I was an innocent person trapped into their world. There were no other cars driving around as they had blocked all ways in, as they thought. But they didn't. I came upon the scene thinking it was just some bad car accident, so I turned and decided to take the route I knew to my house, the back way. This lead me right into the active crime zone. Did I know this? No. Did they know I was an innocent person? No. Do I blame them for pointing the high powered gun at me? No. Am I thankful to be alive, Yes.
I think about the Michael Brown case and all the uproar about his death because of it, and I think of me today, and how easy it would have been for them to kill me, just because of my mistakes or theirs. They didn't know I wasn't the bad guy. They didn't know if the bad guy had took me hostage. I didn't know they were looking for a bad guy, I just thought it was a car accident.
So many things went wrong and went good today. What went wrong was that the police had not blocked off every way into the crime zone. So I wandered in unknowingly. What went right is that they did not shoot me, and they could have easily. I was the only car in there driving around. But I was just trying to get home. I didn't know it was a manhunt for a criminal. I didn't know why I was trapped in their world. When I saw the string of cops with big guns, I knew I was in big deep trouble. I also knew I had done nothing wrong. I also knew if I did not do the right thing, I was dead. If the cops are lining up with big guns walking in a line, oh shit, your fucked. You better think wise and make the correct choice.
If I had pulled out because the light turned green, I might not be alive. Or I might be injured. I saw them, but they were all looking a certain way.(except the one) I knew they did not see me. I knew if I pulled out they would shoot me. So I didn't. I waited. I waited until I knew they had gotten to where they were going. That was just instinct. I could see they were on a mission, so I let them do it. I wasn't going to turn until I felt I was safe, from them, the cops. Hey, they had the guns, and there were no other random gunmen that I could see, so the cops were my fear, not some ~ on the loose criminal.
I can tell you,that after today's experience that none of us can know what happens when a cop shoots someone. None of us can know what the exact details are. It's scary that's for sure. The tables could have gone the wrong way for me today. I could be a white woman shot by white cops and no one would have ever heard about it. End of story, Dead.
A mistake, because they could have thought the person in the car was the on the loose gunman they sought. Praise the Lord, I had some common sense and cop pointing the rifle at me did too.
