Trep Tragedy On St Patrick's Day

It was just a few minutes into Saint Patrick's day 2015. He was on his way home from work. Not a job working for someone else as he had done for years. This time it was his business. He decided to become an entrepreneur, and he was six months into it. Happy to be in charge of his own business he was.

He posted on Facebook just before midnight something about ISIS. Then he headed home to his wife and three small children. Shortly after midnight a vehicle driving in the opposite direction of him went out of control, hit the median, became airborne and flew into the oncoming traffic. A drunk driver they say.

The flying car hit a fellow member of my church. I didn't know Jason well, but I sat in the same pew area as his family for years. I know what good people they are. I watched them suffer for years childless and wanting children, I saw how God blessed them with three in the last seven years. I know he was a man of God and that he loved the Lord. 

Here is what the accident looked like. All of the people in the upside down car survived. The driver fled the scene but was caught shortly after.

I do not know how to make sense of this. It's not fair is my first thought. Tremendous sorrow second thought. Forgiveness third. I forgive the man who is accused of drunken driving who did this, as I know all the people in my church will. Still I am praying and weeping for all involved in this tragedy. 

Today was the funeral for Jason. It was a packed house. It was sad and beautiful. 

I've had five friends or family members pass away in the span of one year. I don't really know how to grieve at this point. I have a million mixed up feelings. I want to work on my startup Passdown, but it's been super hard to do that. I wander around wondering "what am I doing?" "what is my purpose?" "why all these deaths?"

For now I carry the broken heart for Jason's wife Karen and their three small children. For now I weep, for an entrepreneurs life cut short. I weep for his dream to work for himself and build a great company. I weep......and I weep....