Is There A Cracking Point For Entrepreneurs?

Wow, this last few months, I've been under so much stress in my startup journey. Being an entrepreneur somehow spins me into a tightly wound yo-yo and spits me out into a craziness of joy or pure disappointment.

I don't really know why the last few months have been so up and down, hard on me. I got the darn startup to launch. Yet there seems to be one million more things to do now then there was directing the web builders, art designers, lawyers, and filing all the legal documents. As confusing, stressful and tough all that was, the phase I'm in now seems to be more draining on my emotional self.

This past month alone, I thought maybe I was possible in an entrepreneur psychotic episode. I have no idea what that is, but I was sure I was in it. I think it's a place where you don't really feel like yourself. You just seem to be going forward hoping where ever your self is will catch up so you both can unit and feel normal again.

What I fear is that, this is hardly nothing as to what is to come. Yes I have read about the intense stress an entrepreneur will have to endure. It seems as though it's part of the package. When I'm working with people this stress is nothing for me, I handle it like butter. It's when I'm doing it alone, that's when the stress freaks out and forms into some intensity I can't understand. It seems to wrap around my being and take me into some world of crazy emptiness, where I bounce around in it all alone, and of course this makes me feel like I'm cracking.

I am almost sure this is a normal part of building a startup and that other entrepreneurs have been in it. I just have not found the blog or read the article that expresses this same story I live.

For now music on my ears and exercise is my only sanity. Still, I would never turn my back on this entrepreneur journey. If there is a cracking point, surly I will make it though it.